When we are going to settle down...

pk nk settle down nih..
aku ngan asben still terumbang ambing lg...
nk settle down kt sini or kt mana...
for info, asben aku will be transferred to KL...again...!!
after 10 months here...dh ada ura2 nk kene transfer lgk...
nnt aku camner...am i going to stay here with my 2 daughters tuh...
it's quite difficult to handle if u r alone...

kronologi nyer..:

we are living in KL after we married...kt meru tuh...year 2005
then I've got a new job kt kerteh...
then myself, maid and hifzza moved to kerteh on July 07..
my asben still kat KL...sbb die xdpt transfer lg...
nov 07 my asben dpt trasnfer to tengganu...
and now his going to be trasnferred again to KL...
but the exact date we doesn't know yet...

susah tau...kl sorg2...
penah aku drive to dungun at 12am sbb hifzza dmm panas..
and as u all might know, kerteh nih takde spital..n no 24 hours clinic
either ko pegi dungun or kemaman which will take 30 minutes of driving or more
depending on the speed...
n the next day hifzza still dmm panas lg until the temp reach 40oC...
bwk die gi klinik..n then get referral letter to send her to specialist...
tau kt mana specialist tuh...kt kuantan!!
waited until 8pm...sbb die nyer ubat kul 8pm..
xnk ler nnt tgh2 drive tetiba die dmm panas...
so tgg pkl 8pm bg ubat dmm kot bontot tuh...
after that trs drive gi kuantan...
since this is my 1st time gi kuantan..so mn ler aku tau kt mn specialist tuh...
berpusing2 aku crk..benti bape kali toksah ckplah...
nih aku nk ingatkan...
if u are giving the instruction please xpect them know nothing...
don't expect them know all the road n lorong n expect yg dieorg leh bc ape yg ada kt dlm kepala ko tuh...
tuh ler yg jdk kt aku mlm tuh...
dieorg igt aku tau kot jln2 kt kuantan nih...
heeellloooo...aku xtau ok...
furthermore that was my 1st time jejak bandar kuantan...
it's already 12am n ko still xspi lg kt spital tuh...
last2 tau ape jdk...
aku benti kt 7E nih..aku nangis2 mtk tolong tjk jalan...
saying that i've got 2 year old daugther yg tgh dmm panas...
time tuh..aku dh xkire...malu ker ape ker...
teh 1st thing in mind ms tuh is to send my daugther to hospital ASAP...
luckliy that was the last stop yg aku tanya and i've found it...
ms tuh toksah ckplah...aku dh penat pk n nangis...
my asben spi kt kuantan at 2am...hifzza being admitted to ward...

so am i going to face that kind of situation again..??
hopefully not...but luckily during that time my mom ada...
if i'm alone camner...??

but no matter how we will think about that in depth...
xkan aku nk benti keje plak kan...
dh ler sume brg naik skang...
but no matter how i have to be strong if still i need stay alone with my 2 daughters...
aku boleh nk mtk tkr KL...provided u had already completed 2 years services in ur current position...
then only ko leh pk nk gi trasnfer KL or what so on...
lgpn xlama dh nk 2thn..next year July...ckplah 2thn aku kt currect position...
so please hope for the best for us...